"Reflections"

Sunday, June 2nd, 2013 // 7:00 pm It seems like it's been a lifetime ago that I was diagnosed with breast cancer. As I sit here reflecting over the last two weeks, I can hardly believe that this nightmare is real. I have been scheduled tomorrow for a mastectomy of my right breast. I have pulled my shirt open, just to take a last glimpse of a precious part of my body at least 20 times today. Knowing that this will be the last day that I will ever have a "right" breast. As my granddaughter Savannah said, "just think of it like this Nana, it will be the last day that you'll have cancer in your right breast." I am afraid, but I know that God is in control of all my "going in and coming out." I gave my testimony at church today and sang, "I Just Wanted You to Know." (Kim Hopper} I sang this song because God sent it to me when I was having my bone scan several days ago. He is so merciful, so forgiving, so all-knowing. I praise him in my valleys...I love Him in my weakest hour. I pray that He will deliver me from all these trials. Lord, help me! I am just ready for this to be all over with. It's time for me to take a shower with the antibacterial soap the nurse at Dr. Williams' office gave me. I won't be writing for a while as my arm will be sore from surgery. This journal will be good for my soul.