"My Thorn"

With every event in our life, it seems "throwing a party" is expected. Well, yesterday was indeed a day for my party...a "pity party." I have tried to be really strong and through the Lord, I am, but I am also "human." Dealing with an infected breast, which by the way seems to be healing, and just concentrating on the things to come, I began to ask God, "why me?" "what have I done to deserve this?" As soon as my husband came in from work, he could see that I was "flying low." He walked over to my Bible lying on the table, thumbing through...he turned to a passage of scripture and handed it to me...It was Paul, speaking of his infirmity, in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. This passage gave me my relief... 7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. 9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. So many things in life happen to us and we don't understand. I became so excited at the possibility of getting to go to Wilmington, NC for the fourth, knowing that when I return, chemo awaits. I have come to realize that I would do anything for just "one normal day!" I know that this is what God has given me, this is my cup and no one can drink from it but me. Lord, I know that "your grace is sufficient for me, I am weak, but YOU are strong!" This morning, I look out into the trees and see your magnificent glory of the sun shining all around. My prayer is that this "thorn" that I've been given, can be used for your glory!