"Cancer Cannot"

I can't believe it's Sunday and tomorrow I get my port...I've already eaten my "last supper" and have begun to prepare myself mentally for the morning's deed. I've read some and spoke to those who've had ports put in and they tell me that it isn't bad. My mastectomy breast is still healing and practically 90 per cent better than last Wednesday when the doctor had to open it up and drain out all the "poison." There is a possibility that he will do the same while I'm "under" in the morning, but I hope and pray that's not the case. I am so ready for this thing to be healed and don't relish the thought of having to go through an incision and drain tube again! I went to church this morning. I hold things together pretty good in public, but when asked to pray in choir, I fell apart, thinking of how much each and everyone in that room meant to me and that this quite possibly would be my last time for awhile to be apart of them, made me really sad. I got up really early this morning and prepared lunch for all my children and grands. Someone made the comment that I should have let them do the honors instead of me, but it was something I wanted to do. There's nothing like having your babies around to make you feel better. I remember the day I first found out that I had breast cancer, all I wanted was my three children to be near to me...I even tried coaxing one or two of them to jump in bed and sleep the night with me and daddy like they did when little. After a few..."that's just weird" remarks, I abandoned the idea. Of course with hubby and I still sleeping in a double bed, this feat would have been next to impossible anyway, even if I'd had a partaker. A beautiful young lady friend of mine gave me a special throw to take with me when I have chemo...on it reads: "What Cancer Cannot Do!" Cancer is So Limited... It cannot cripple Love...It cannot shatter Hope...It cannot corrode Faith...It cannot destroy Peace...It cannot kill Friendship...It cannot suppress Memories...It cannot silence Courage...It cannot invade the Soul...It cannot steal eternal Life...it cannot conquer the Spirit...Anonymous