"Lopsided!"

Trying to work a full week...not sure if I'll succeed. Since I had my drains out, I've been watching my breast, or nonbreast, grow browner and browner, and tighter and tighter. I have a call into the doctor to see if that's normal. I really hope it is and that I don't have to drive all the way up to the office. My next doctor's visit is Wednesday afternoon and it will be good not to have to go before then. The people up at the office are probably ready to throw a rock at me! It feels good to be doing my regular things. Not feeling comfortable yet wearing a bra or any prosthetic, I just go "lopsided" and wear a button up shirt over a tee. It doesn't bother me at all for people who know that I've recently had a mastectomy to stare at my "flatside." I went to visit my mom in the nursing home today for the first time in about 2 weeks. Most of you are aware that she has dementia. I'm not sure how often I'll be able to visit her when I start chemo, but it was a really hard visit. A gentleman came by the office today who was dealing with a cancer scare of his own. He was elderly and was telling me that he hoped he had been a good father and husband. It broke my heart to see his eyes fill with tears in fear of what tomorrow's news may bring as he receives his biopsy report. Every emotion that I experienced and still must face on Wednesday came up. As he left the building, I was crying profusely. Driving to the nursing home later, my cell phone rang and it was a 90 year old acquaintance who had been given my cell number from work. He told me how he had been praying for me and that his daughter-in-law was going through the same thing and she was doing good. I always tease God about how He's showing out when he does something that is just so obvious to comfort me. I pray for each and everyone who is facing a giant in their life today.