"Getting Started!"

As I exited the doctor's office yesterday, relief was nowhere to be found. I had long awaited the words "you can go ahead and start chemo" for weeks now, so I wouldn't have to dread it anymore. Thoughts of "I wish I had more time," or "I wish I didn't have to do it at all," were going through my mind. Nonetheless, Monday at 9:45 am is my first treatment. I suppose I can look at it several ways; one, this is something that's going to help me, potentially save my life, or this is something that's going to make me feel terrible! For now, I will go with the first one. If one went by how they feel as to how healthy their body is, I could weedeat several acres of grass and throw in a brisk walk. But we all know that "feeling good" is not always our gauge. I have been busy in my house, cleaning out closets, unused bedrooms, throwing out wall hangings that have years of dust, washing anything and everything that doesn't move...Saturday we will clean all floors and fabrics...I'm not so sure if I'm ready for Chemo, but one thing is for sure, like my sister Sue says, "I can't finish until I get started!"